Amor

A veces, me siento amor por un amigo que yo he conocido por muchos anos. No lo entiendo usualmente y ojala que yo pueda decirle a el todo de mis sentamientos.
Y entonces salgo el mundo de suenos y regreso al mundo actual y guardo mis sentamientos a yo mismo.

Cynical

I work very hard to keep an upbeat attitude. Very hard. I have a tendency to become very critical which then makes me cynical. I don't think those are very wonderful attributes of myself so I try to protect others from them. If I know my opinion is safe with you, then maybe I'll explain why I'm frustrated with something. But usually I'm still trying to figure out exactly how I feel so I don't make much sense.
I do disagree with plenty of people. Do I always try to start an arguement just to get my opinion heard? No. Why? Because the arguements that I especially hate to get into are the ones with other people who tend to be cynical or over critical. Its a downward spiral for me.
Topics to avoid with me are: US Foreign Policy, Free Trade Agreements, Cuba, Politics, Close-minded opinions on any topic, Church divisions, "Their culture is wrong" thoughts, and there are more that is just to name a few.
I am fairly open minded and I like to hear others' thoughts. I like to be challenged by new ideas too. Reading is how I get most challenged. That way I can work out my thoughts on my own time.
Bye.

Fun

I have trouble doing things when they're not fun. Currently everything doesn't seem like fun so I don't want to do it. Everything is a "have to" not a "want to".
I think the fun left when spring forward happened. I hate moving my clock one hour ahead. It seriously messes with me.

How frustrating!

Ok maybe I'm not asking the right people, but I cannot get anyone to go with me to this amazing concert that I have free tickets to. I keep getting "I have to wash my hair" turn downs. Seriously. Am I really that undesirable to hang out with? My feelings are actually beginning to hurt on this one. I know I can just go by myself, but what fun is that? None. The concert isn't until Thursday, so I guess I'll just keep asking. I'm not desperate. Really.
How frustrating! You'd think even if these people didn't want to hang out with me that they'd at least want to come to the concert, no? I will be going to this concert. And I will enjoy every second of it. I'll even make posters proclaiming my love for every single band. Ok maybe not.

Bastante

I am insufficent. Good thing Jesus is enough. Because I'm a sucker without Him.
The only thoughts in my head tonight have to do with how I'm not ______ enough. Fill in the blank with whatever adjective you please.
Funny thing. So God is sufficent for everything. And I'm not, but I'm sufficent just enough for whatever God has in store for me.
Ok I feel a bit better, but I still wish I picked up things easier.
I also found out today that I am only a real person for 12 hours of everyday. After being alive for more than 12, I begin to deteriorate at an exponental rate. So I awoke at 8am, I became a real person at 8:30am and then after 8:30pm, I stop being a rational, loving, beautiful person. I mean I'm still "awake", but definitely not fully functioning. So I'm not a morning or night person, but I can only be a person for 12 hours.
Bastante por ahora... Tal vez voy a escribir mas manana.

Wheezing

It's another cold and nasty day. Wet too. Now not always do I put my mind to something and finish it, but I did today. Well actually... I decided last week that on Monday(today) I was going to take up running. I did go on a run... I made it 3 blocks at a decent pace before almost passing out. I then walked rest of the distance. I'm proud of myself just for the fact that I did what I set out to do. Run. And I did run. My goal distance of running was 2 blocks. I made it 3. Yay me! But it being a cold and nasty day makes for not so nice of a running day.
Tomorrow will be better weather for a run... Ok so there might be snow.