Outsourcing

I don't like it in any form. Business. Church. Anywhere.
It might be cheaper or easier to do, but why do it if you already have the resources to do it in house?
That's all.

"Oh honey, don't worry you'll find someone special someday"

I've heard this way too many times recently. I don't know how the conversations I've been in have led to this statement, but I don't like it.
Who says I need someone special? Am I not who I am by myself? Do I need someone to complete me? Heck no!!!! And no!!!! God was not thinking of someone else when He was making me.
I have so much freedom right now. Why would I give that up? Why would I want to give that up? I think that is the better question. I am responsible for myself and no one else and I like it that way.
I like who I am and that is all that matters.

And anywho... my special BASS came yesterday. Who needs a relationship when your bass has come? I like my quirks. :-)

Fish... sticks...

I don't know what my problem is and I hope this doesn't reflect on my ability to care for people in the future.
MY FISH KEEP EATING EACH OTHER!
This happened to me in September. Gabi kept chewing on Gus's fins. Gus eventually died and Gabi fed off his carcus for the next couple of weeks because I was mad that she ate him. Somehow Gabi lived way past my expectations. Well I bought Lumierre about a month ago and he and Gabi lived together for 5 days. Gabi was floating at the tank. I don't think she could handle being with some fish after being alone for so long. So the next day I went and bought Gypsy. Well Gypsy had some nibble marks but nothing major until this weekend. I'm pretty sure she is going to die soon. Her back fin is completely gone and she's having trouble swimming.
I feed my fish 2 times a day. I leave the light on. I use the water purifier. Why does domestic violence continue to occur?
If I can't keep my fish alive, how am I suppose to protect my family in the future? They'll just end up eating each other and then be hauled off to jail. Man, my future sounds bright.

Can you hear it?

Yes that's the sound of me shrieking with glee.

I bought a bass. Its a Luna Gypsy Pre Bass. I'm excited. I hope its all I've ever wanted in a bass.

I can't believe I just bought a bass. Seriously? It feels so unreal because I just clicked a mouse. I own a bass guitar. Seriously? Oh I can't wait until it comes. It will be like Christmas day.

If you couldn't tell, I'm really excited. It can only make me sound better because I know I can't sound any worse. :-)

Bass

Oh there is this bass that I want so badly. Its a Squier by Fender P something. I don't know, but its been what I've been looking at mostly due to the fact that its in my price range. Well... the champane colored one I want is on ebay. I've never done ebay before. The auction closes in 2 days. And I haven't bid yet. I will. Tomorrow night. I'm watching it. Seeing how high it will go. I'm hoping that it will stay within 20 dollars of its current asking price. If it had a buy me now option, I so would.
Now not that I don't enjoy Jake's bass, but its not mine. I want to be able to name my bass.
Ok I know... weird. My electric guitar is named Julius and my accoustic guitar is named Jasimine. I like to give personality to my instruments.
Oh I hope I do get that bass. :-)

The hardest part of breaking up...

The Bible study that I'm apart of broke up last night. Considering how flexible our schedules are, it was becoming particularly hard to find time to meet together or have time to complete the tasks each week to fully participate in Bible study. I know I was struggling to read through Isaiah, but I didn't come because of what we were studying. I enjoyed the fellowship. I don't hang out with very many people and outside of Bible study none my age.
I guess it didn't hit me last night, but I feel like my group of friends just broke up. I guess now I'll get to nap longer on Sunday afternoons.
Twentysomethings hang out with their own kind. Married couples, married couples with kids, and singles... they just don't have anything in common. How can they all expect to be friends? I love my friends who are in the first two groups and my fellow single twentysomethings. But its like I'm not in their club because I'm not married and I don't have kids. But I do come in handy as a babysitter once and awhile. Pu-leeze.
I'm not any less of a female by not being married or not having kids. I'm only 22. Give me a few years. I'm a young adult so that means I don't have it all figured out and if you think you do(because you have a spouse or are married), well you're wrong. None of us have it figured out hence why we should all be able to live in harmony together and love unconditionally.

And a rant for those who are engaged sending out date reminders--- those magnets are ridiculous. Waste of money. Flaunting that you're getting married is not becoming of you.

This post started out ok and then I lost it. I leave things pent up way too much. I need to release more often.